Dr. trauma & CPSO complaint filing
Hi: I'm looking for some suggestions & perhaps support. In the last few years I've experienced a gr8 deal of trauma at the hands of physicians & hospital staff in Ontario, including untreated breast cancer, followed by repeated sexual assault during treatment, huge overprescriptions, bi lateral mastectomies w/out informed consent, no reconstruction, physical assault, death threata & an overwhelming 'buddy system' amongst physicians amongst other events. I began the complaints process with the police & the CPSO last summer, which was hugely awful. I don't sleep or function as it is, but after the police officer told me it was he said she said & i probably consented anyway (!) & the CPSO investigator acted out disbelief that any man would touch a woman with no breasts, i felt worse & worse. The nightmares & sleeplessness get worse when I even THINK about completing the complaint. How do you survive the complaints process, telling what happened, when you are so tied up in knots you can't speak? I've sought counselling assistance from several physicians & have gotten responses ranging from "you're lying", "he's my friend stop talking", "it's in the past, forget it", "oh, I've heard of you. Dr. Blank told me you are crazy & would say this", to "if your Dr. raped you, you deserved it." Frankly, I no longer trust any physician in Ontario, particularly those claiming any knowledge of psychology. However I'm determined to complete the complaints process. I can't manage a malpractice suit, but I do have written evidence from the dr. himself begging me not to report him & offering to pay me off that should put paid to his license if I can just unknot myself enough to finish my complaint. Anybody else gone thru something like this? What would you suggest? Any advice? Thank you!