CHRONIC PAIN - CAN`T LIVE WITH THIS ANYMORE
honestly...I am not able to take this chronic pain anymore....my life is not worth living...I cry morning, noon, and night...and I am wanting to end this all...The pain is from not one but three serious motor vehicle accidents, the worst being the latest in 2009. I had to go live in a rehabilitation clinic for 7 months, because I was injured so severely...I worked and worked at therapy so I could return home to my family to my life...but since then I have been in chronic pain everyday....I can`t live like this anymore..I don`t know what to do...
I have tried, physiotherapy, massage therapy, exercise therapy, occupational therapy, accupuncture, chiropractor, tens, suction cup therapy, hot stone massage therapy, traction therapy, what more can I try.
I do admit that I found some temporary relief from deep tissue massage, but three days later I am in the same constant agonizing pain...I take oxycontin for pain...but am not able to take this during the day at work, as it leaves me too groggy... My doctor has asked me many many times to stop work and go on long term disabilty...sure I have insurance that will pay me my 100% wages while I am not working for the rest of my life ....but I love my job, adore the people I work with. I love the people I meet at work, frankly it is rare to find a job that they love, but I have and I want to stay there. Most days on my breaks, I retreat to the bathroom where I cry out in pain and slam my fist against the wall begging for something or someone to help alleviate this pain, but nothing... If I were to die tomorrow that would almost be ok with me, because of the pain that I am in..
By no means am I suicidal or want to die, it is just that I seriously can`t take the pain anymore..
Can someone please offer me any help or guidance as to what I can do
or if they are experiencing chronic pain...please please take the time to tell me what has worked for you..
I have an amazing husband and three dogs who I love more than anything in the world, but my life, their lives are being affected by my pain.. I am not able to walk them anymore, I am not able to go out to functions anymore because I am in too much pain...Each day is a struggle for me, but I still go to work, when it gets to be more than I can take, I take a day off work but try not to...
I thank you in advance....for any and all suggestions